Discovering Oneself

Somehow I need to discover the "Purpose of My Life," as I am now too unmotivated, and thus, I need a purpose, simply said... So now i need to find something that I feel of having a "Natural Advantage". Hopefully when I discover it, I would feel better positioned to succeed...!

Anyway, now I am referring to a specific blog that somehow suggest me to think and answer a set of questions, all 7 in total... I am not in the mood to answer those questions now, and plus, I need more time to think and choose the answer wisely; thus, I'm just going to list it out for my easy reference later... And the questions start with...

What makes me Smile?

Maybe it involves a certain thing or things that makes me couldn't stop smiling. So now I have to keep on living and looking until it appears...

What am I curious about?

And now it's about something that i am curious or eager to learn. Maybe it is something about what kind of books I have in my mini-library, or what kind of books do I search for when I'm inside the library. Something that I didn't plan to read, but eventually read it, that's a sign of curiosity, or something like that...

What do I notice?

Given example is that the mechanic notices something wrong with the car, or a speaker notices a boring speech. Well everyone should have something they sensitive about, as in in their reachable environment, and when I notice something that most people don't, it could be a sign. It is somehow a piece of life's purpose puzzle, and it's going to lead me to my answer...

What am I passionate about?

It is said that passion is the key to purpose, a sign of one's purpose. I would need to discover my passion, not create them, as passion is what you are since birth; you don't make them, it's in you, and you just need to find them...

What would I do for free?

This involves the pleasure of doing things more than the value of money I could have received. Well I think for me, it is the service of counseling people with problems. I love to listen and give advice, yet I think I haven't been doing it good for sometime now; as there are a certain incident or event that changes me, somehow. So I guess I just need to find a new one... haha...

What do others hear I say?

This time, I have to ask those who are close to me - studio-mates maybe - of what usually I talked to them about. I think I talk about mostly anything, cause usually they are the ones who starts the conversation anyway, and all I need to do is "barge in"... hehe...

What do people compliment on me?
This is the last question of the set, and it is simply about what others say I'm naturally good at. It is said that "when you spend your time doing what you do best, then you will succeed," well at least with higher chances.

Some caught me singing, and say they love it (blush blush), and some says they love my hand drawings somehow, and even watercolour painting...

And that's about it, and I will think thoroughly about those key points. If I haven't discover it yet then, I will keep studying these keys and hopefully I will eventually discover it sometime later, and begin to live on purpose... (^_^)

-AFDHAL-

BECALMING SEA

The lost blue moon,

Is nothing more than a tale;

Triggered by a ripening star,

That bears a pitch black hole.

The past is dead,

Resurrection is futile;

Yet the ghost is calling,

Like a bard that lulls.

Those are hope but more of a dream,

As darkness utters its words unto thee;

Pursuing the savage flow,

Vanquishing thy very soul.

I am but a dream teller,

Who’s hindering the Sagrada Familia;

A ship sailing the great seas,

Sunk by a siren’s song.

I am summoning the guardian of time,

The keeper of all wisdom;

In wait of the finite,

As all is but one.

The age of the fallen shall end,

A new light shone;

A shadow made to reflection,

The mark of absolute victory...

-AFDHAL-

Words of Those Time

There is this... POEM I guess, from a friend of mine, of long time ago.... and I still love it till today... it is entittled
'PUISI SEBUAH PERSAHABATAN'...

Sesekali jadilah kawan yang mendengar dari yang hanya bercerita,

Ambillah masa untuk memahami hati dan perasaan kawan,

Kerana dia juga seorang manusia,

Dia juga ada rasa takut, ada rasa bimbang, sedih dan kecewa,

Dia juga ada kelemahan dan memerlukan kawan sebagai kekuatan,

Jadilah kawannya itu.

Kita selalu melihat dia ketawa,

Tapi mungkin dia tidak setabah yang kita sangka,

Di sebalik senyumannya itu,

Mungkin banyak cerita sedih yang ingin diluahkan,

Di sebalik ketenangannya,

Mungkin tersimpan seribu kekalutan,

Kita tidak tahu.....tetapi jika kita cuba,

Jadilah kita sahabat seperti dia.

Mungkin Tuhan sengaja mahu kita berjumpa dengan orang yang salah,

Sebelum menemui insan yang betul,

Supaya apabila kita akhirnya menemui insan yang betul,

Kita tahu bagaimana untuk bersyukur dengan nikmat pemberian dan hikmah disebalik pemberian tersebut.

Apabila salah satu pintu kebahagiaan tertutup,

Yang lain pasti akan terbuka,

Tapi lazimnya kita akan memandang pintu yang telah tertutup itu terlalu lama,

Hinggakan kita tidak nampak pintu yang telah pun dibuka untuk kita.

Masa depan yang cerah sentiasa berteraskan kehidupan lalu yang telah dilupakan,

Kita tidak boleh meneruskan kehidupan dengan sempurna sehingga kita melupakan kegagalan dan kekecewaan masa silam.

Kebahagiaan seorang manusia itu tidak semestinya dalam memiliki segala yang terbaik,

Mereka hanya membuat yang terbaik dalam hampir apa saja yang datang dalam perjalanan hidup mereka,

Kebahagiaan terletak kepada mereka yang menangis,

Mereka yang terluka, mereka yang telah mencari dan

Mereka yang telah mencuba,

Hanya mereka,

Yang boleh menghargai kepentingan manusia yang telah menyentuh hidup mereka.

Kawan yang paling baik ialah seseorang yang anda boleh duduk di dalam buaian dan berbuai baersama tanpa berkata apa-apa pun,

Dan kemudian berjalan pulang dengan perasaan bahawa itulah perbualan yang paling hebat yang pernah dialami.

Memang benar yang kita tidak akan tahu apa yang telah kita punyai sehinggalah kita kehilangannya,

Dan juga benar bahawa kita tidak tahu apa yang kita rindukan sehinggalah “ ia ” datang.

Memberi seluruh kasih sayang kita bukanlah satu kepastian yang dia akan menyayangi kita kembali,

Jangan harapkan kasih sayang sebagai balasan,

Nantikan saja ia untuk mekar di dalam hati dia,

Tapi sekiranya ia tidak,

Pastikanlah ia terus mekar di dalam hati kita,

Perasaan itu Cuma mengambil masa 1 minit untuk jatuh hati pada seseorang,

1 jam untuk menyukai seseorang,

1 hari untuk menyayangi seseorang,

Tetapi ia mengambil masa sepanjang hidup untuk melupakan seseorang. 


such are the words of simplicity, yet the meaning is what makes it INSPIRING.... Well at least that's what i thought... huhu...

~AFDHAL~

Good Enough

A few days ago, when i was TUMBLR-ing... i saw this kinda cute cartoon... huhu... and I think I LIKE it...

And surprisingly its from 9GAG... haha... cause I don't find it funny at all... I think it is so TRUE... you shouldn't waste time impressing people who didn't appreciate you... just do your BEST for those who cares about you... because losing someone who didn't care about you is nothing... but losing someone who cared most about you is really something...

It is always the best feeling when you are home and someone is there for you... It makes you feel that you are SOMETHING to SOMEONE; and it just makes you feel that you are HOME...

Last words... also from TUMBLR...

-AFDHAL-

Reverse Engineering

Finally, it was finished!!! I took a whole day to make this, and... I don't know why, but I've been doing my work with  "SNAIL SPEED"...

Actually, I finished this in the "CUTI MID TERM" or MID TERM BREAK last week... It's just that I can't find the right time to post this... And the fact that I want to post this picture is just because I don't have anything else to be posted... haha...

Anyway... Happy working me... and HAPPY LABOUR DAY...!

Voice of Mind & Soul

Hello, and welcome to our show, "The Voice of Mind & Soul...!" I am your host, KAORI... and today we have a guest, Afdhal...! Let's give him a warm welcome... wuuuuuuu.....

Thank you for the warm welcome... huhu.... Anyway, isn't this show should be named

"What's your passion?"

Owh... thats a tough question.... I've been thinking about the name of the show for quite a long time, and I think it is better to change it a bit, so that there is a sense of originality in it, even though the basic idea comes from that show... haha...

Owh... okay... So why does the name went to be "Voice of Mind & Soul" then?

That's because the show will mainly talks about the thoughts that were running through the guest's mind, which is you... and that is where the name come from, as it is voiced out of your mind.

Okay... well answered... I guess.

So much for a guest to ask for so many questions, haha... So, lets start the show with a question for you to answer next.... Back to how the old tittle sounds, so, what's your passion then?

Hurm.... Well, I'm not so sure... but I think I love words, the formation of words... that were just beautifully decorated to form such a mind soothing rhythmic sound... huhu...

Owh, I see... That's interesting... When did you aware of this interest? is there any specific time of this incident happening?

Well, I think it was last year, in 2011... Well, I was kinda stress of that time, because of some "things" that can't be avoided, running through my head. At that time, I was on a holiday with my family.

Owh, one happy family. That's good, where did you guys have your holiday back then?

Haha... Nowhere far, just at KLIA, Pan Pacific... My mom just wanted to have some time with family, away from work. Anyway, we went inside a book store, and somehow, I feel so alive when I'm inside... The feeling just kinda seep through all of my arteries and veins from the tip of my toe to the tip of my head, and that's when I know that I've found my passion... somehow... huhu....

Hmmm... That's an interesting story to be shared with us today... Thank you... Now, do you have any second passion or interest?

Well, of course I do.

Good! and we will continue this show next time... stay tune!!!

Erkkk... okay...

~

~ The Fairy and Me

   Their Story ~

It was just like the book said…

Any person who reads this entire book will be granted one wish.

Their wishes came true and they lived happily ever after.

   ~ The Fairy and Me

     Their Story ~

     The End…

~

~ The Fairy and Me

   Her story ~

   The End…

~

~ The Fairy and Me

   Her Story ~

   Chapter 15

“I want to be your boyfriend ! ”

“What ? ”

( What ? ! He’s in love with me ! ! ! ! ! !

…thump-thump

thump-thump-thump-thump )

“I want to be your boyfriend ! ”

( He said it again !! …gasp-gasp

pant-pant-pant… )

phew… what a relief… it seems we were falling in love with each other from the beginning.

There’s nothing to be worried about. Oh yes… I have to answer him… Of course it’s OK ! )

“…Yes, OK ! Your wish has come true ! ”

( Yes ! ! ! )

   ~ The Fairy and Me

                                           Her Story ~

                                           The End…

~

 ~ The Fairy and Me

   Her Story~

   Chapter 14

After a short time, he closed the book and stretched

( Oh, has he finished reading ? )

“Have you finished reading it ?”

“ ! ! ! ??? ”

( Hmmm… I keep on surprising him… )

“Oh, I’m sorry I… didn’t mean to surprise you…

have you finish reading it ? ”

He nodded

“How was it ? was it interesting ? ”

He nodded again

( Then… what does he wish for ? If he says something like “I want a cute girlfriend ! ” then I can say something like “How about me ? …” Hmmm…

I’ll be brave and ask him. )

“Then… what is your wish… ? ”

 To be continued…

~Adele~

I kinda like Adele, for her voice...

It  started  last  year,  when  at  that  time,  I  and  my  friend,  Nik  was  going  to  ALIRAN CIPTA  Firm  for  our  practical  training...  huhu...  Sometimes,  Adele  song,  "Rolling  in  The Deep"  was  aired  on  the  radio  while  I  was  driving,  and  Nik  would  sang  that  song...  It is  not  the  first  time  that  I  heard  this  song,  and  I  don't  really  like  it  at  first,  and  having  Nik  singing  it  makes  me  somehow  to  have  INTEREST in  this  song,  just  a  bit...

Well,  you  know  how  friend  influences  their  other  friends  way  of  choosing  things...  huhu...

A few days later, when I went home from practical training, the TV was on in the living room, music channel, I think it is HITZ tv... and Adele was there, singing... That is the first time I saw her, and that song makes my
"BULU ROMA MEREMANG"... huhu... and I like the way she sings, and the way the water and glass were shaking and ripples to the beat...

Yesterday,  I  went  to TIME SQUARE with  my  friends  for  its THEME PARK... On our  trip  back  home,  we  went  to  my  friends' "RUMAH SEWA". And  they  showed  me  a  video  of  Adele  being  interviewed...  huhu...

I think she is a PATIENT person, and cute too... haha... And I think it is because she was not "Born Artist," so she doesn't possess the impatience and ego of most artist... She was "Made Artist," with her "Natural Born" TALENT that she possess... huhu... And thats why she just be her cute self, didn't have to control much in front of the CAMERA... huhu...

So, the only thing I wanted to say is... I kinda like her... huhu...

~

~ The Fairy and Me

   Her Story ~

   Chapter 13

“…Oh, this is your home,

right ? Good-bye and I hope your wish comes true.”

As soon as I said that I rushed home, as if running away from him.

I was so happy and exited that I couldn’t sleep at all on that night…

( Because of that, I fell asleep on class the following day and the teacher made me stay after school. )

The teacher scolded me for a good 30 minutes.

When I finally made it to the library, he was there reading a book.

( He’s reading  here today, too… He seems so absorbed in his reading.

I think I’ll walk up to him again… )

I walked up behind  him, just like the day before.

 To be continued…

~

~ The Fairy and Me

   Her Story ~

   Chapter 12

“……”

“……”

We walked in silence.

( Gosh… I suppose I should talk to him about something… It’s snowing now, so maybe I’ll tell him about the time that I found the puppy. )

So, I told him the story about that dog.

“Snowy days like this remind me at the time…”

We walked for a while, talking

( actually I talked and he listen ), and then I saw his apartment.

( Oh, we’ve already reached his home… )

 To be continued…