~Life Happens Everyday~

While I was facebook-ing today, I found some interesting things that I like... and those things are some of the little things in life that I didn't realize, because of its littleness... And now I do... huhu...

Somehow it means, "just go with the flow..." and this reminds me of a song, by Nelly Furtado, Powerless... This life is too short to live with something that doesn't worth to be thought of much... Well, certain things may require some attention, but not too much... Leave the old regretful things behind, so that you could make a room for a new one, either better or not, its not an option... Somehow its a must... Well at least that's what I think for now... haha...

 Here is another one... Be thankful of what had happened... find the "Hikmah" behind the scenes... huhu... and talking about smiling... Something crossed my mind... and that would be someone who keeps on smiling no matter what... huhu... Well, I've never seen her not smiling... She always smiles...
I remember that when I went to koperasi MRSM, I would search for her instead of the other, and shouts "Masha, Mee Sipot Due...!!!" huhu... and she would get it for me fast... With a smile of course, like she always treat others too... huhu...

So somehow just recently, I asked her, on how I would ever be able to smile to the world, when it turns against me... and her answers made me smile... haha...

"jangan senyum utk dunia.senyumlah untuk diri sendiri.lagipun senyum kan sedekah.selalu lah fikir,ini sekadar dugaan daripada tuhan.mungkin hari ini mungkin bukan terbaik,masih ada lagi hari esok.kenapa kita hendak bersedih kerana dunia yang cuba menjatuhkan kita. tunjuklah diri kuat dari mereka.. lgpn kl orang senyum,mesti wujud positive surrounding.. "

I know it sounds simple, but when it came from someone that you know are good at doing something, mastered the skills, those simple words means much more... Because we knew they practice it everyday... It is more on psychology I think... When an ordinary man and a Successful  man speaks of Success, the later would give a greater impact... even if they were using the exact same words... huhu... Life is funny...

Last but not Least, this is the last one I've found, and I learned one thing... I may not have that many friends like some others do... But I will try to make these few friends of mine are one of the best a Man could ever had... huhu...

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~ The Fairy and Me

   Her Story ~

   Chapter 6

I got back to the park just when the boy was about to leave.

( Oh, that’s the boy. Is he going home ? )

I felt somehow interested in him, so I followed him home secretly

He got to what seemed to be his apartment and went inside.

( This must be where he lives…

Sigh… I wish I had a kind boyfriend like that…. )

I wanted to know more about the boy, but I went back home at once because I was worried about the puppy, too.

When I got home, I checked on the puppy…

( Oh, it’s sleeping… it must be warm and cozy now.

But it will be hungry when it wakes up… )

Within a few days the puppy became fit and chipper

 To be continued…

~Light~

I should have known, that I have never had the power to change someone...
No matter how hard i tried, it will never ever work, except when there is an interference by Him, the one who hath power over all things... The all hearer... all knower...

Sesungguhnya Hidayah itu milik Allah, dan dialah yang berkuasa memberikan hidayah kepada sesiapa yang dia mahukan... dan aku tidak lain hanyalah penyampai sekadar mana ia berada dalam kemampuanku...

إِنَّكَ لَا تَهْدِي مَنْ أَحْبَبْتَ وَلَكِنَّ اللَّهَ يَهْدِي مَن يَشَاءُ وَهُوَ أَعْلَمُ بِالْمُهْتَدِينَ

Sesungguhnya engkau (wahai Muhammad) tidak berkuasa memberi hidayah petunjuk kepada sesiapa yang engkau kasihi, tetapi Allah jualah yang berkuasa memberi hidayah petunjuk kepada sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya; dan Dia lah jua yang lebih mengetahui akan orang-orang yang (ada persediaan untuk) mendapat hidayah petunjuk.

Lo! thou ( O Muhammad ) guidest not whom thou lovest , but Allah guideth whom He will . And He is best aware of those who walk aright .

(Al-an'am : 125)

 مَن يَهْدِ اللَّهُ فَهُوَ الْمُهْتَدِ وَمَن يُضْلِلْ فَلَن تَجِدَ لَهُ وَلِيّاً مُّرْشِداً

Sesiapa yang diberi hidayah petunjuk oleh Allah, maka dia lah yang berjaya mencapai kebahagiaan; dan sesiapa yang disesatkanNya maka engkau tidak sekali-kali akan beroleh sebarang penolong yang dapat menunjukkan (jalan yang benar) kepadanya.

 

He whom Allah guideth , he indeed is led aright , and he whom He sendeth astray , for him thou wilt not find a guiding friend .

(Al-Kahfi : 17)

إِنـَّا ِللَّـهِ وَإِنـَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُونَ، اللَّـهُمَّ أْجُرْنِي فِي مُصِيبَتِي وَأَخْلِفْ لِي خَيْرًا مِنْهَا

Maksudnya : Sesungguhnya kami milik Allah dan kepadaNya kami akan kembali (pada hari kiamat). Ya Allah! Berilah pahala dalam musibahku ini dan berilah pengganti yang lebih baik(dari musibahku)

Let us not walk the same path... Let it not be crossed again... Lets make a difference... Lets do it different...

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~ The Fairy and Me

   Her Story ~

   Chapter 5

When I saw the snow collecting on the puppy’s head I felt a pity for it, too…

( poor puppy, you must be very cold. )

I drew it close, brushed away the snow and  put my scarf around the puppy.

Then, I took it home.

When I got home with the puppy I suddenly remembered the boy.

( Oh, what is that boy doing now ?

…Puppy, wait for me a minute. )

 To be continued…

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~ The Fairy and Me

   Her Story ~

   Chapter 4

On my way home from school that day

I heard a sound coming from the park.

When I looked that way I saw a puppy that looked like it had been abandoned in a box, and I also saw a boy.

“poor puppy… but my apartment doesn’t allow pets.

I’m sorry but I can’t take you home with me… Oh, but I can buy some milk for you.

Wait a minute ! ”

The boy said that and rushed to the convenience store.

( What a nice boy… )

Thinking these thoughts the next thing I knew I was there next to the puppy

 To be continued…

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~ The Fairy and Me

   Her Story ~

   Chapter 3

As if waiting for me to finish the book…

*Ding-dong-clang-clong

“The school will soon be closed. Students still in the building please prepare to leave.

We repeat… The school will soon be closed…”

( What ? already that time ?

I’ve got to lock the doors and go home… )

I changed my shoes and went outside.

I hadn’t realize it had began to snow

( It’s snowing. That’s why I felt so cold. )

 To be continued…

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~ The Fairy and Me

   Her Story ~

   Chapter 2

An unfamiliar book.

( Hmmm… “The Fairy and Me” huh ?

Well, I might as well give it a look… )

Read… read… read…

( One wish will be granted… just by reading this book.

If that’s true, I would wish I had a nice boyfriend…

well, I might as well read the whole book. )

Read…  read… read…

And I finished the book.

 To be continued…

~Life as it Is!~

What are my problems??? Is it that big??? Is it that many???

I used to be able to handle these with ease... and now, what happened? The simplest of thing could be thought of can't be solved... Such nonsense... This is wrong...! This is unacceptable...!

Lets look back in time... deep in time... What is wrong... where does it starts? when?

Why does it seemed so simple long ago, and now it is the most complicated things happening??? Is it really complicated? or am I the one who makes this thing complicated? or is it just me???

Think... think... think... This is what I do best... once...

Now, not really... haha... I've lost my touch...

Lets see... I've discussed it with a friend... and then, it seemed so simple... Why? I even came out with the solution before I finished telling the whole story... why?

Its because I KNOW THE ANSWER...! Its just that it was too crowded in my head that I can't find myself thinking!!! huhu...

Or maybe its just that I need someone to talk to... Or I just want someone to care, without them knowing what actually happened... Well that answers why I choose people who doesn't know whats happening in my life... I guess... hmmmm... Well, they are good friends, and a good listener...

"Friend in need is a friend indeed..." huhu...

I actually could handle it, its just that I am not in the condition to do so at that particular time, I guess... So when i started telling it to a friend of mine, the mood change... and I was able to think and make conclusions and analyze of what is happening to me... hmmmmm... thats logical... and good enough for me... huhu...

So now, the trick is to learn whats the trick to make myself in a state of mind that allows me to think rationally... at its fullest... fully functional...

Well that's a  tough one... huhuhu... and a challenge too...

 Then the second problem arose, like the sun roses between the valley to the east... huhu...

and that would be, the need and wants... mine... of course...

Lets say that the things that I can do is symbolized with doors... and now, I know which door is good for me, and which is bad... I know which one is the one I want, and which is the one I need...

The biggest problem is that, even though I know that door is the one I need, yet I keep on choosing the one I want... And thus, it will keeps on growing and growing... and I mean the problem... Never to be solved... ahaha...

Sometimes I think I even tricked myself, into thinking that what I want is what I need... but it is wrong... totally wrong... I even sometimes stop thinking when I started to get the idea that what I need are not of those that I wanted... maybe because I want what I want, and for that, I tried to turn it to something I need... and that will never work... Its kinda complicated when it involves human mind... so vast, so deep... to much to be learn... huhu...

That is not the first time I've been tricking my mind... It was kinda like hypnotizing yourself... and I'm telling you, its the worst of thing that you could have done to yourself... haha...

I did it since I was in primary school, sometimes, on certain things... and now, I am confused of which is the truth, and which is not... It was like lying to yourself... and you will never get the answer... huhu...

What did I want in life???

Once, I just wanted to lead the simplest of life, happy, easy life... where everything fits itself, where you don't have to set everything to your desire, let it flow on its own... always, goodness knocking on the door, and nothing was stopping it from coming in...

Now... do I want fame? do I want Tittle? Do I want money? attention? What is it? Everything???

I know those won't lead me to happiness... but a mere dream that will hurt in the morning... waking up with nothing by your side... and then its too late.....

I think I need to regain my old self, to a certain degree...

It is more stable, and, carefree... cause I get all the help I need... huhu... Well, I need something to start it... or should I say, KICKSTART...!!! huhu...

Well actually I've been kicked several times before, but just like I said, I refused to learn, and choose what I wanted most, putting aside of what I need... haha... If it keeps on like this, then there are no solutions... huhu...

Maybe I should let the TIME once again do its job... of opening a wider path for me to see, then walks on it... well then... That wouldn't solve the problems I have now... hmmmm...

So what I can do, is to retrieve my old STATE OF MIND, so that my decision won't be effected much by the world... I've seen so many, but take the least... I shouldn't... I shouldn't...

Surely yes, the past can't be changed, and the future could... but the question is, WHEN??? if it doesn't come after the statement made, then it is rendered useless... huhu...